4 march 2025

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Jaan, sun mujhe tere se ak baar  seriously deep conersation krni hai , approx 2 ya3  call hr ya msg hr  chaiye continue,  to kab tk aur kis time tk nikal payegi , ye bta de bss. 

Ak hi baar me pdna sab ho ske to...

Dekh jaan baat ye hai ki , me jadya kuch khud ke liye n bolu , dekh total baat itti si hai , ak baar achhe se khud ko bhar rkh kr sochna , ki ye kisi dusre ke baare me hai ,ohkk 

Dekh jaan, ab soch , 

Kya apna relationship tikh chal rha hai ky ? As like healthy relationship..

Kyuki ye sab msg me phle hi likh rha hu taki tera time km jaye to babe 

Tera ans haa ya naa me se ak hoga , 

Agar haa hai to soch healthy relationship ke parameters kese thae jab apn ne start kiya tha , aur ab ki condition jo hai unnke according kese hona chaiye taki long distance me bhi sab tikh rhe..

1. Trust and trust issue

2. Understanding 

3. Connected and conversation 

4. Informing 

5. Sath rhna taki aane vali problems ko face kr ske , 

Ohk i think ye hi hai ,isse jadya kuch hai to vo bhi dekh kr sochna , jesa starting me hi tha .

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1. Jaan , itte saal se jaanti hai tu mujhe , aur me tujhe trust to hoga hi  itta to me maan hi skta hu , haa trust issue ho skte hai tujhe mujhe lekar , ya mujhe tujhe lekr , i don't think ki mujhe lekr hua bhi ho , ak baar ko chhod kr , jo vo preeti vala case tha , pr i blocked and connect clear kr diya , to i don't think ki ab tujhe ho kuch. Rha mera , to jaan vo to dekh, aesa nhi hai ki mujhe tujhe lekr trust issue hai kisi particular ko lekr , pr dar hai, ander hi ander ki tujhe khhoo n du ,kyuki interest to tera pura khtm hi hai , ye to me jan chuka hu, to jaan bss ye hai , baki ye bhi automatic khtm ho jayega jab aage ke contains pr baat hogi to, 

2.Understanding, agar iss chiz ki baat aati hai to i think , tera ans yes hoga , pr mera ans no  hai , jaanu aesa lagta hai mujhe bhot jadya , aur kahi na kahi to jaan ye sochne vali baat hai tujhe smjh pana vese bhi mere liye hard sa bn rha hai jab se less communication ho rhi hai ,

phle me tujhe smjh pata tha jab 10th me aur usse phle thae , pr ab tu sach kahu to tu nhi lagti , haa ak hadd tk bhot sari chize change ho jati hai time se , nature se , aur jo condition aa jati hai unnse , jesa apne sath hua usse bhi khafi asar aa chuka tujme , pr jaan thoda smjhne ki baat hai ki agar apn continue kr rhe hai to long gaps me jo change hai unnhe accept krke chize smjhna. 

Tune iss bich kahi baar baat chupayi hogi phir to , aur jaan ye to abhi 4 march vali baat hai ki tune kha ki mujhe nhi btana  kuch bhi

Jaan baat ye nhi hai tu aesi kisi baat se naraz hai, jaan, aaj tu mujhe baat btane se , uss time msg seen krke chhod dena etc , meri jaadu kbhi nhi thi aesi, 

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Jaan, tu iss riste ko purely dosti ki trh treat kr rhi , agar me dosti ke hisab se dekhu to ye sab perfect chal rha as a long distance friend , pr 

Jaan agar to abhi se aesa kregi to aage jake apne bich rista naam ka hi hoga , jiska tutna bhi kuch pal ka khel sa hoga , aur sab khtm ,

Aur agar shadi bhi ho gyi to jaan baad me bhi to tujhe sab mujhse hi to share krna pdega , apni problem sab , even more , sab smjhana pdega , psnd napasnd jo bhi kuch badla ya ab tujhe achha lagta hai , tb jaan tu sab chize nhi smjhayegi to jaanu bond strong kese bnega aur me kese achhe se tujhe treat kr paonga , ab tu ye

aaram se soch kr dekh, pta chale , tujhe loki psnd hai , pr mujhe nhi issilye me loki laya hi nhi , to jaanu , ye smjhane se hi smjh aayega , jab tu btayegi ki me iss baat se naraz hu sad hu to hi to me ussi hta kr tujhe happy kr paonga na baby , vese happy achhi lagti hai, kyuki tujhe happy dekh kr meri happiness natural bhar aajati hai. Aur jaan ye tikh krne ke liye hmesa mujhe akele me open talk kra kr taki me tujhe behtar smjh pao tu mujhe behtar smjh paye aur ak duje ko jo achha lagta hai ,jo interest hai vo develop krke phir se riste ko phle ki trh achha bnaya ja ske ,

tu agar ye sochegi ki ye abhi bhi hai ,to jaan only ldayi n hone ka mtlb ye kbhi nhi hai ki understanding achhi hai , bhot baate sath rhne pr bhi ladayi n hone ka mtlb understanding pr jata hai , aur jaan example hi btaoo to 10th me jaan jab meri papa se ldayi hui thi raat ko mera sar drd tha aur mene khana nhi khaya tha , tere se upr baat kr rha tha jaanu kasam se sab sach bolunga tune meri puri baat puch kr smjha tha aur then mujhe smjha kr vapas se bheja khush krke taki me khana khao gussa km kru aur sar drd khtm ho aur tension n lu , jaan ye sab issilye hua tha kyuki tb tu chahti thi mujhe smjhna mujhe smjhana , vo ab syd kahi nhi hai..

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3. Jaan connected and conversation ke baare me kahi baar kha hai ,jaan ye to main topic hai upr vali problem bhi issi karan se hai, jaan yaad hai tree aur boy ki story btayi thi issilye nhi btayi thi ki tu mujhe baat nhi kr rhi actual me ye to hai hi pr jaan bina btaye kuch nhi ho skta aur interest understanding , acceptance , sab kmiya accepting krke sudharna , sab jab ho skta hai jab vo pta lge aur smjh me aane lge , aur vo dur beth kr to sirf baat se hi lgegi ,

jaan, baat nhi kregi to ye rista kitta hi majbut n ho khtm hone me sirf kuch pal lgege , aesa haal ho jata hai ,ab tu dekh le , reason btaoo to tu bhi galat aur mere bhi galat ki koi baat nhi hai bss jaan hai to hai jo mujhe lagta hai , dekh , aesa nhi hai kmiya mujhme hai ya only tujhme hai , aesa nhi hai , dono me ho skti hai aur syd valid reason bhi ho skte hai pr jaan adjustment to krna pdta hai hi na , 

Jaan tree vali story me tree me nhi tha , vo tha rista apna , aur bchha tu hi tha , jaan suruaat me sab tikh tha 10th me , condition ab badal gyi aur ab tere dost bd gye jo ki lockdown me bhi thae pr online offline nhi thae itte , jaan , tb kyuki har rista start hota hai interest se jo apne bich starting se bdta ja rha tha , then attachment hui aur jab 15 oct ko mene jane ki baat kahi tb tk tu aur me attached thi , jaan attachment me chhod kr jane pr drd sa lgta hai, ajib sa lagta hai jese apna sa gya and u and i think it's love , pr suruaat kesi bhi ho dhire dhire chize bhot jadya hoti jaa rhi thi jisse attachment ab love me badalta ja rha tha jisse apna rista 2 se 3 month me khtm hone ki jagah aage aur intense ho gya ,

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apn har din alag sa hi chize krte , sath rhte , max time new ideas and connection like photos , porns , clips , videos, jokes, shaadi krna , etc. Jisse chize khafi jadya intense hui aur achanak se sab khtm hua , dono depressive mod me jane lge , pta hai yha tak agar tujhe smjh  aaya to yha tk mujhe sab pta tha tera , ab me sara sach bolu 

Uss din ke baad se mene socha , sab kismat bhrose, aur rota rha ,yaad krta rha , paper aa rhe thae pda likha kuch n tha , sab chize ak sath bigad gyi thi ,paper cancel hue , jaan me socha atleast ak problem khtm , mene 11th me bio li i know tune kha tha ki mt le bio art le aesa mujhe pta lga , me art leta pr nhi liya ,

kyuki me ussme kuch bhi n kr pata fail ho jata kyuki mujhe chaiye tha ab aesa subject jo logical ho ratne ka nhi , kyuki meri yaadaas bhot teji se kamjor ho rhi thi , dhire dhire me presaan bhi hone lga , chize ajib se hard si thi tab , yt mere dost hi smbhal rhe thae mene post krna chhod diya aur almost uss din ke baad mene phn deepawali se 1 month phle liya tha pc ko mb 3 se 4 month offline tha bss bich bich me jo moke mile ussme teri profile pr aata tha , 

dekh kr jata tha , jaan achhi baat btao, tu tab bhi mujhe pyar krti thi aur vapas aane ko kah rhi thi , mene bhot msg type kiye pr send nhi kra kbhi ,  pta hai ye sab mene tujhe btaya bich ka nhi btaya , aaj sab bta rha hu, 11th chal rhi thi, ghar ban rha tha , sab chize mujhe nigrani me milti thi , aur ghar ka mahol ghar bnane ke chhkar me ldayi jesa bn rkha tha kbhi bhi , problem bad rhi thi, dimag me mere gussa bdta ja rha tha sab chize itti bigadne lgi ki mene apne dar ko bhar nikal diya like kuch bhi ho maar to denge nhi , to bss , itta rkha to meri chize badalne lagi teri pic thi jio ke phn me aur voice jo ab tk ki sabse pyari thi *dyan rkhna* vo bhi sunta tha , 

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achanak bhai ko sk hua aur jio ka phn cheak kr liya pr kuch n mila to reset kr diya , sab khtm sa ho gya tha , dhire dhire 11th se 12 aayi ghar me shift hua tb bhi me block n tha , to mujhe lagta tha tu wait kr rhi hai , ab bhi means pyar krti hai ab bhi to mene socha , ki mehnat se pdayi krte hai taki jaldi kma kr usse puchunga then sab settel krne pr focus kr skte hai, pr jese hi mene start kra june july hui achanak se dekha to uder me block mila  sept me aur rota hua teri tasweer imagine ki to jaan, mujhe dhundla sa dikha, aur aaj bhi me teri 10th ki ak bhi tasweer clear nhi dekh pata , karan ye tha ki me hmesa voice hi sochta tha to vo hi kano me bolti hui lagti thi pr pic gayab, aur mera suddenly depressive mode chalu ho gya , tb tk me bss gussa kr rha tha sab pr , pr isske baad mene sabse kahna bnd kr diya , jo jese khush me vo kr deta , koi dekhta has deta ,jaan tu ye sochti hai na ki function hote ya bhar rhta tb , me mind me 24 hr thinking chalu hone lgi , block hone ko me smjha tb tk ki tune nhi kiya , pr tb se mene mind me lga ki syd vo bhi bhul kr move on kr gyi ho , aur sab khtm ho gya ho ab vesa , sab chize aur phir phle ki sari baate uss din ki baate aur teri voice , aur tere last time ke ruk ja vale msg  sab kuch pagal krte hue me ye bn gya ,  jaan itta soch kr mujhe 2 chiz achhi mili vo thi ki me bhot jaldi samjh pa rha tha dusre ke baat krne pr , dusra observation power bd gya tha , pr nuksaan , uss din ke baad sahi se so nhi pa rha , mental peace puri trh se khtm thi, mene alag alag try kiye ki me mind settel kru , aur pdayi pr focus kru, ider mera pdayi me downfall start ho rha tha , ider me distract krke inn chizo se bhar aane ki jo jo kosis kr rha sab mujhe aur khtm kr rhi , aur nakam rhi aur finally i decided to talk to u , then mene baat kri , dosti rkhne ko boli gunnu pr mene pyar ke liye hi kha ki me dosti ki line tk khud ko rok nhi paoga ,to then sab kuch settel hone pr jaan chize km hui pr n thamhi , kyuki mera pura mental health tujh pr depend krne lga , scientifically mere happy hormones thae tere sath , achanak kmi 2 saal , then tu aayi to vapas se sudden change dikha to dependency bni , then jaan , chize ye hai ki me dhire dhire khud ko heal kr rha tha pr phir chize gap bnne se bigad rhi thi

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Tune achanak gap lena start kiya aur web pr aana hi bnd kr diya, 

Mene try kiya pr mene smjhane ki kosis n ki Kyuki me chahta tha ki tujhe hurt n ho , kuch bhi tu apne hisab sw khush rhw taki tujhe problems n ho , vo hi aaj bhi chahta hu, pr ab chize bhot jadya future ko lekr hoti jarhi hai, jaan  mene socha koi baat nhi, kyuki jaan hurt hone lga mujhe , mene socha ussne mere karan itta sha to me usski khushi ke liye adjust nhi kr skta ky , ye krte krte jaan chiz bhot long gap me jane lgi , time boundary jo mene 7 bje ka decide kiya tu nhi aa rhi thi week week bhr then mene socha ,vo insta aur snap pr hai to me kisi ak safe fake account bna kr rh leta hu jisse usse aasani ho , mene snap choose kiya kyuki ussme details km thi then jaan tu suruaat me web pr aa ya krti thi roj vese hi mujhe snap bhej rhi thi 2 din me baat bhi kr leti thi pr achanak sw gap bdne lga , aur phir smjh aane lga, ki snap jo bheja vo particular not for me , thats for all , to socha ki syd sak n ho sejal ko issilye pr 

Gap size sucks my brain, and me tujhe indirectly smjhane lga , pr tune tb mere snaps dekhna bnd kr diya , mujhe lga ki syd me bhot sari bhej rha issilye , to mene socha ki jaan bta deti ki jadya mt bheja kr to me kam bhejta pr tune btaya nhi pr me khud se hi khud baat kr rha teri taraf ki chize bhi khud hi think kr rha tha automatic jisse chize mere mind ko relexing ka kaam km krke dhire dhire overthinking bdati jaa rhi thi jiska ilaz tha sath rhna , kuch time spend , jaan chize bigadti hui purani vali problem vapas bdne lgi aur papar aa chuke thae , meri halat khrb thi mene tujhe connect krne ka try kiya snap bheja story lgayi tune seen krke chhod diya then chize khtm ,

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last ka time tha aur pure saal ka me vese bhi pura syllabus cover n kr paya, aur jo kiya vo sab bhul gya , achanak se uss raat , aesa n hai ki tera naam lga rha , jaan ,tera naam nhi hai, pr jaan chize aesi hai ki galti dono ki hai jisse chize kharab ho hi rhi hai na , sahi to nhi ho rhi , jaan baat yhi nhi hai , chize aur bigadi jab mene tujhe 5 ko raat ko connect krje btaya ki nhi ho mera to 5 ko khatu ka bday tha , jaan tune mujhe kha ki result dekh kr btana mene kha ki mene kr ke aaya to pta hi hai to tune mujhe kha ki mujhse mt bol tujhe jo krna hai kr, and chali gyi , aage ka btaoo naraz mt hona , na hi ye sochna ki teri galti hai , sabse ho rkhq hai, me konsa dhud ka dhula hu , pr aage me puri raat roya ,  khud se nafrat kr rha tha , kos rha tha , pr phir bhi tujhse pyar hi kr rha tha , tere bare me n socha , bss socha itta ki 

Tu old time me bhi aese hi chhod kr chali jati ky , mujhe ye bol kr , then me subh utha aur pdayi start kr diya , mera sar drd start hone lga aur sab kuch khtm sa hi hua tune msg krw aur sab tikh hua then jaan i wait tujhe mujhse 8 ko baat krni thi uss baat ko 27 tarik ho gyi , then  30 ko tu bimar thi hospital gyi thi , aur 2 june ko tu online thi , 

Jaan drd btaoo kab hota tha , jab tu online dikhti , ye pta hokar bhi , mere msg , unseen hai , smjh aa jata , pr vo bhoy dino se unseen hai, drd kr jata,  jab story jo ki normal hi thi , unseen rhi , jab ki me tb lgata hi 1 hi tha , 

Tu online dikhi , aur me rh n paya , mene tujhe blood report ke liye puchne ko msg kra tune itta kha , ki me account delete kr rhi snap ka , to mujhe tu ab msg mt krna mujhe bilkul bhi , then tu chali gyi  bina kuch sune , karan btaye ,  aur hurt aur hua jab account hi delete nhi hua snap aa rhi thi 5 din baad se 18 ko 9 bje tera msg aaya jo sejal ne kiya tha actual me bss betha tha online chat me to dekh li aur phir chize mere mind se control n hui me bhul gya then kya tha she knows and block , jaan preshani same si aa gyi thi ki kuch der me sab bigadne vala hai, mene pass 2 raste thae bss 

Ya to me id delete kr du , dusra , face kru sab aur sab kuch khud pr lu ,

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Mere pass jo phle ki trh mindset tha , to me bachne ka socha ,pr phir mene chata maar kr teri baate yaad ki stand ki then mene sari photos ak files bna kr usse safe jagah pr daala , gunnu ko remove kiya account se then , jo bi chize thi jo mujhe ghar se bhar nikal ne pr tere tk connect krwa skti thi vo sab safe krke me mere dost ko msg kra aur kha ki bhai aaj ya kal aaya to smjh jana ghar nikala hai pr nhi hua ye sab , 

Mene shailvi ko bhi contact krne ka socha pr nhi kiya , finally mene bss wait kiua ki syd tu apne level pr smbhal legi khuki sejal thi , pr jaan  itta sab rha , mera har din roya dimag kharab rha , me nhi soya , last me kya pta chala , paper tha issilye use lena bnd kr diya tha , jaan ,

Bta skti thi ki agar tujhe mere karan disturb tha to , aur aesa to tha hi nhi ki tu only paper ke karan hi dur rhi , rh bhi gyi to paper khtm hone ke baad clg ke baad msg kr skti thi, pr usske baad result aaya tb pic aayi then mene paper ka sara info nikala aur sab pta kiya ki kitte baar clg ki counselling  list nikalegi jaan, result ke bhi tune 1.5 month baad msg kra vo bhi meri story dekh kr , jaan , 

Chize ye hi notice kra me usske baad bhi usse phle bhi tune muskil se kuch hi time khud se kiya vo bhi starting ke mujhe aesa lgta hai , vrna to meri story dekh kr yaad aakar kiya vo bhi kbhi kbar , jaanu baat me ye sab ki phir bhi kuch nhi hai thoda bhot hurt kra , pr jaan 1 month me kya tere pass free time nhi tha bilkul bhi soch kr focus kr , kya tu khud se kbhi try kri time nikalne ko taki mere se baat krna chahti ho issilye  

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Mujhe kisi ne kha tha khafi saal phle same condition me , riste nibhane ke liye adjust krna pdta hai dono aur se , aur saath hi smjhna bhi pdta hai , jaan tere gap 2 din se hote hote 1 month commonly bn gya , ab tu bta me kya sochu . Jaan week me ak din bna kr bhi tu mujhe fix kre na ki iss din baat krungi kuch der ke liye iss timw pr to bhi me khush ho lu pr tere time pr "kuch kah nhi skte mujhe bhot kuch kah kr chale jate hai "  

Jaan tune hi mujhe riste ke baare me sab sikhaya , to i think tu iss chiz ko try kregi dhire dhire cover krne ka , aur tujhe ye lagta hai ki tere exam ki teyari me disturb n ho issilye ye sab kra to jaan basic example hai 

Ak race me langda horse hai aur dusri aur sahi to jahir hai ki dusra jit jayega , mera brain hi kaam nhi krega to me kese jitunga , 

Jaanu kahne me tune kah diya ki tu mt soch itta pdayi pr focus kr , pr agar itte se tikh ho chuka hota to syd me aaj bhi clg me hota , jaan , yaad krta hu , miss bhi krta hu , haa tujhe lagta hai ki me immaturely behave hai me , change kr lunga pr jaan usske liye btana to smjhana to pdega na , chize adjust to krni pdegi na , 

Aur agar tujhe ye hai ki baad me tu phir attached n ho jaye aur phir shadi n ho to phir tujhe hurt hona pde to kyu kr rhi tu duje se shadi soch kr to jaanu , isska to me bhi totally kuch nhi kah skta pr me tujhe bhaga kr nhi lekr jao , jiske reason btaoo to dekh mane n mane family teri hai, mujhse jadya unnse connected hai , aur vo hi tera mainly sabkuch hai, me 100% bhi life me kosis kr lu tujhe khush rkhne ki to bhi nhi rkh payunga vesa jitta tere ghar vale krte honge kyuki unnse dur rhkar aur vo sab moment dekhkr tujhe khud ko bhi achha n lge na hi tu aage phir happy rhegi to ye karan hai, pr jaanu ,jruri thodi na hai shadi hi krna , aur rha ki tujhe shadi ka ki me ghar valo pr burden bn jayunga to baby , sun, tu vese bhi job lg hi rhi hai, aur phir bhi shadi ke baad bhi tera kharcha mera hi tha to me apne pese me se tereko thoda de dunga jisse adjust krke life rh skti hai , ab rha ki no shaadi no life happy things like sex , husband , maa bnnna , etc , jaanu , ak baat bolu, agar tu razi hui iss ke liye ki me nhi to tu majburi me phir kr legi duje se , to jaan , phir to me kitti bhi kosis kr lu , teri shadi ka kisi aur se card hi dekhunga, pr addi rhi ki krungi to sirf vrna kuwari to kra denge last me , ye hi hota hai mene bhot logo ki story bhu dekh li , i hope tu addi rhkar sath degi, 

Pr koi load mt le , kyuki nhi rhi sath to bhi pyar tujhse hi krunga, me to vese bhi kuwara hi hu , kuwara rh lunga 😅

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Jaan tujhe syd agar mujhse riste rkhna hai na to mera sath milkar thoda riste aur understanding ko majbut krne ki jrurt hai, aur jo imp. Chiz gai vo hai informating 

4. Informing jaan ye baat krne se jadya imp. Hai , jo ki kuch aesa hai jo hmesa kra ja skta hai, kitta bhi busy hokr ,jaan tu bimar thi mujhe n btaya , haa mature logic se to me konsa tikh kr hi skta hu pr jaan chize as compare aasan ho jati hai jab aapki koi khud se jadya parvaah krta ho jaan kar , jaadu , bimari ki hi nhi kahi jane ki bhi baat like bijaynagar gyi , btaya nhi tune , jaanu phle tu 10th me mujhe dress bhi pahan kr btati thi ki ye pahana hai kesi lag rhi, even dance kiya usska shoot kra kr mujhe bheja turnt , jaan ye chhoti chhoti chize hoti hai, 

Phle tu school ja rhi ye bhi bta kr jati thi , phle tu har time har chiz btati thi taki kbhi aesa n lage ki me tujhse dur hu ya nhi, syd issi karan se epic long distance tha vo , pr syd typical bn gya auro ki trh jaan, maan ta hu phle se khaafi burden hai pr inform n krna ye busy hone ka koi reason nhi hota , 10 sec ka bhi time n hai, tujhe , rha isska ki sabmere sath rhte hai jaanu , sab rhte hai pr tu thoda bhot time nikalne kosis kri hai ky ye mujhe kbhi btaya , to me kya smjhunga baby, baby aesa nhi hai ki me sirf teri hi kmiya kr rha nhi , pr me to ye hi bta paonga na , kyyki tu to mujhse baat hi nhi krna chahti , 

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Jaadu baat nhi hoti hurt hota hai inform n hona pain de jata hai, jaan jaipur aayi dadi sang , pta tha ki akele jayunga time rhega , babe ,ak baar bhi inform nhi kiya socha ki kru ky msg ,jaan tera hakk hai tu nhi kregi to kon krega , babe tu bina msg kre kesw soch skti hai ki me mna hi krunga, babe tu bolti na 10 min me vha hota , me subh se wait kr rha , soch rha ki bss pta lag jaye kahi se ki akeli hai, to syd ye pakoda auro ke aayegi agar dada hue to ye sab soch kr sab teyari kra aur jaan me to msg bhi 1 bje kr diya tha 5:30 pr reply kiya tune , mere msg ka akele hote hue bhi late reply kiya tb bhi btati to bhi aa jata , aur jaan aesa to hai nhi ki tujhe kha hi jaonga, ya tera misused kr rha , ya tu uncomfortable hai, sach bolu to ab mujhe lag bhi rha hai tu syd ab uncomfortable bhi hai , jaan sorry pr babe agar tu ye bolkr bhi aati na ki puliya se bus stand tk ka time hai aur bus aane tk ka to bhi aa ta , pta hai mera intent kiss ka bhi nhi tha , to sex ka to bhul hi ja , mene plan kiya tha , 5 min bhi mere liye syd bhot kuch hote pr... 

Jaan phle tu khud se tasvire bhejti thi kyuki tu janti thi ki me nhi manngunga pr chahta hu pr , tu to kahne ke baad bhi kbhi kbhar bhejti hai, jaan ye to sochne ka hai na ki tera pti tere pass n hai, to vo tasveer mange ga hi , jaanu , tasveero me face chahe 1 hi ho , pr tasveero ka mujhe dena , mere liye effort hi hai, jaan voice note ,khud se syd kbhi bheja hota to baat hi alag thi, 

Pta hai , chize effort me tu khud soch specially mere liye kya kiya tune last 2 saal me .. 

Mujhe baat ki , snap to tu sabko bhejti thi, song bhi tune mere liye lgaye bolne pr , jaan baat effort ki bhi nhi rhi, baat to puri inform ka rha na , 

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Rha ki inform ka time nhi milta jaan, washroom ka bahana bhi hota tha thoda sa bahane thae jo tu maar maar kr mere sath time spend ke kosis krti thi 

10th me gaav jate time tu car me piche beth kr ja rhi thi jabki aage bethti thi taki mere se baat krate hue btaye ,

Gaav jakar vha kya kiya sab btana ,

Vha vo bchhe tere sote hue pr milksuck krne ka try kr rha tha 😅 ye btana , jaan sab khatam aur memories sa hi lagta hai ab to ki tu thi mere sath , pr ab nhi hai ,

Jaan mature hona agar isse kahte hai, to sach me , to i hate maturity. 

5. Sath rhna aur aane vali problems ko solve krna , issme to syd kuch kahne ki baat hi nhi rhi, problem solve krne ke liye btane ki jrurt hai ak duje ko , aur usske liye ak proper communication and informing plan hona jruri hai ,

Jaan apne riste me ab bhot bhot jadya kmiya hai, jaan  sach bolu na , mujhe aaj bhi phle vali jaadu hi pyari lagti hai, even me pyar bhi ussi se krta hu, even , mere liye meri patni bhi vo hi hai , 

Aur sach bolu na , time travel jesa kuch hota na 1 baar me past change krne ki jagah uss palo ko hi jina chahta ,   chhod ab to kuch rha nhi ,

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To my love , simple si aur details me aaj last baar iss past se present tk sab bta diya mera 

Tere ki baat kru to jadya nhi pta pr mujhe aesa lgta hai ki  problem bhot aayi hogi pdayi me comeback krne me aur suruaat me ss nama ke problem se bhar aane me pr jaan , i think tu move on kr chuki thi cuz lockdown khul chuka tha to may be teri bahn mmy aur dosto ke sath tune vo attachment share krke sab settel kr liya dire dire,  taki tujhe problem n rhe mind me aur tu enjoy kr ske life , sahi kiya , 

Pr chhabu , mene kbhi nhi socha isska , mene teri aur meri feeling ko bond ko sab baato ko revise krta rha taki ak bhi baat n bolu start se lekr last tk jo jo baar baar yaad kiya ja skta tha yaad krta gya kisi ko nhi btaya ki kya hai, sabke sath has kr , ussko khush krta rha ,pr haste hue bhi tujhe hi yaad krke , ro ne ka mann ho hi jata hai , aaj bhi sach kahu na ,

Mujhe 10th class ki meri chhabu baby ki yaad aati hai, 

My lovely wife jaadu,  keyboard ko bhi pta hai ki my lovely ke baad kya likhna hai 

Jaan, love you soo much , 

Ab ye to rha sari baat pr jaan ab tujhe ye advice dunga , 

Tu kuch 1 week achhe se soch dyan rkh , try kr chize khud se smjhne ka , ya dusro se example ke through indirect try krke kuch jaanne ka pr i think khud se soch ,jadya better hai , 

Tujhe tere future , teri happiness ke liye jo bhi kuch achha lge , vo hi choose kr , faltu me dusro ke liye mt pd , na hi mere liye , 

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1. Tujhe mujhse pyar ya attachment hai ya nhi ?

2. Tu mujhse shadi ke liye mere sath aaakhir tk khdi rhegi na ,kosis bhi ?

3. Tera mujhme se interest khtm ho chuka ky ?

4. Tu ye rista aage continue krna khud se dil se chahti hai ya nhi? 

Ak bhoj ki trh nhi , ak takat ki trh 

5. Tu ye sab try kregi kya jo upr mene meri aur se kmiya btayi ,

6. Mujhe meri kmiya bhi btana , aur improve ka bhi ?

7.babu ,i love you ,miss u , question nhi hai pr mujhse phir se shadi kregi ky ?

Agar baby , tu riste ko skip krke chhodne ka fesla leti hai to , take care jaan, aur koi kaam ho to jrur yaad krna , aur haa me unn logo ki trh nhi hu jo chhod gyi to respect bhul jata hai, hmesa pyar care aur respect rhegi aage ke liye 

Aur agar mera chhabu baby ready hai, kosis krne ko , to i am with u , pr start inform se krna , aur achanak se mt krna plz , vrna mujhe phir koi aur mental problem ho jayegi tere bnd krne pr, dhire dhire krna ,baki babe , aakhir tk sath nibhayunga , aur ha tension mt le , mujhe bss kmane tk smbhal le tu shadi ka , then me dekh lunga thoda bhot , kyuki tb tk phir chize aesi hogi ki ghar se mujhe ya tujhe nikal diye to mere pass thikana to hoga 😅 pta chala , sadak pr hu , issilye ohk my baby , 

Filhaal mujhe kuch n pta , kiss chaiye bss , vo bhi video clip me , pyari se smile ke sath ,.   Aur baat krna roj jaruri nhi hai pr inform syd hai, aur thode thode din me chahe 1 min bhi roj milegi to bhi jaan achha lagta hai, voice sunta hu tera to dil ko skoon milta hai, issilye mann sa krta ha

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Phle hi puri sardi tere bin nikal gyi, aur tujhe yaad tk n aayi, chhod , 

😚🤗agar ye aakhiri baar hai to , ak baat , aur meri life me sabse best memories tere sath hi bni hai, aur rhegi bhi , 

To i love youu my life my lovely wife jaadu 😚🤗🤗💖

Ab me khana kha lu subh se raat ho gyi tere sadness me likhte likhte khana chhod diya aur ab syd story dekh li tunw bhot sari to i hope tujhe achha lga ho aur tu tikh ho gyi ho to ab me khana kha leta hu mera babu bss kiss krne ki ichha ho ri ab bhot , vese bhi mera khana bhi to tu hi hai , kha jaoo bole to 🤣🤣 start bhi mid se krunga , vrna niche se , mid bhi achha hai, 🤣🤣 pr upr bhi achha hai , 

Chal babu tc

7 march ko likh rha ab isske aage ....

I know tu pyar krti hai, aur syd tujhe tu ak din smjh jayegi what i feel, syd tu sab tikh krne ki kosis kregi , may be or may be not . 

Syd tu bhul jayegi , aakhiri baat btaoo, me nhi chhodkr jaonga, tu agar jesa chal rha to bhi nhi , chahe tu aese bhi rkhegi to bhi , Tujhe disturb n kru, ab ye aakhiri msg ho tujhe btane ka meri aur se , isske baad ke syd ab try hi n kru iss topic pr, 

Babe baki ye jo 4 ko tune jo tune nhi btaya me naraz nhi hu ,na hi gussa hu , bss, itta kahunga , tera face ajib sa lag rha tha mtlb tu seriously jadya bimar hai , to baby hua kya , aur baat kya hai, btana ho to bta dena tujhe jab lge , 

Baki rha , ki tujhe koi pyar nhi krta hai , jra , nhi ko hta kr koi ka soch leti to syd pta lag jata , tujue lga hoga ki itte din gayab tha , pr notice krti to pta lagta , har ak post story ko mene 1 min se phle view kiya hai, kuch ko chhod kr kyuki vo early morning thae , jaan,

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mene, me specifically chahta tha tu mujhe apni mrzi se msg kre, time nikal kr , pr ab koi baat nhi hai , ab me nhi jaonga chhod kr ak sec bhi tujhe , tu reply aur response kre n kre , baki, tujhe ab jo tikh lge vo krna , aur ho ske to mujhe mt btana abhi kuch bhi  iss baare me jadya , exam baad hi btana , exam 2 se 5 tk chalta hai din me aur 2 hr travel ka lagta hai to almost 7 bje hi aa paonga ghar , to is time pr msg krna usse phle me reply n de paonga, baki apna dyan rkhna ,kyuki , agar tu jesa chal rha vesa lene vali hai, to syd sejal clg jayegi means ,totally time khtm aur syd achanak se phir ak gap aa jayega ,jo bhot lambha hoga ,  

Koi baat nhi , dyan rkh, apna , always loving you ohk janu , 

Baki haa bimar pde sad feel ho akela pan lage ya dukhi ho , aur sab kuch ajib aur achha n lge , to msg drop kr dena , uske aage me smbhal lunga ohk , 🤗🤗😚😚bhot sara kiss huge , sab kuch , 

I know syd hi pahuche yha tak bhi tu pdte hue , syd pahuch bhi jaye , pta nhi, jo bhi ho , dekha jayega. Aur haa , sad jesa vibe lag rha hoga pr nhi hu to tension mt le iss chiz ka.

Baki exercise aur soybean aur rajma chhole inko ghar pr khane ka focus kr , aur rajma aur chhole to tu bnana sikh hi le , mere fav . Hai babu aur ha hmare yha aalu nhi dalte rajma me , ohk my lovely punching bag, vese naam btao kyu rkha , bss baby tu golu molu hai na , soft sa , to jaan cute sa lagta hai bag jesa , aur punching ka to kya hi btana , bss inna bta sku ki  tu me aur raat aur andhera , aur bss moka , then 😋  mtlb jaan gyi hogi , from backside , to punching,  baki jaanu galay mt lena intent , i hope itta to janti ho tu mujhe ,bss trre aage hi pigal jata hu, baki mene control kr rkha tha , pr tujhe bhot bhot jadya pyar krte krte mera mannn ho hi gya aur control n ho paya then bss itte month se n krne ka socha masterbrate , pr ho hi jata hai ..

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Me phir apna ramayan start kr diya , sorry again bolna to chahta hu pr n bolu, kyuki meri babe ko bura hi lgega na ki me usse sorry bolu to , jaan isske badle , 🤗😚🤗😚🤗🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗🤗😚🤗😚🤗🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗🤗😚🤗😚😚😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗🤗😚🤗😚🤗😚🤗 bhot sara pyar , kiss huge , ohk jana , 

Ab bss babe , letter pura yhi tk tha 

Love u